Intentionally or not, THEY put me in precarious and dangerous environments and hands. I always wondered why and how biological parents lived with those. Before I was even seven, I had lived in a one room home without utilities. I had lived under one's house out in the open, and slept exposed to damaging weather elements for many nights. Fear followed me often. I had been taken for many long and tiring walks asking for alms. I had lived through poverty and hunger for quite some time. I had marketed, cooked and cleaned homes I shared with siblings when we were together. Even though I had a biological father, I grew up without one around. Worse of all worst situations, I was left within reach and abuse of a pedophile who liked to be called and considered Ama. What a dark childhood that was. I could never freely talk about any or all of it, so I write, in a nutshell, now. Forgiveness, I time and time heard, releases all traumatic experiences and cleanses the mind/heart. It is not an easy idea to act upon forgiveness. Why should I forget and forgive?
Saturday, September 12, 2015
Question: Forgive?
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Intentionally or not, THEY put me in precarious and dangerous environments and hands. I always wondered why and how biological parents lived with those. Before I was even seven, I had lived in a one room home without utilities. I had lived under one's house out in the open, and slept exposed to damaging weather elements for many nights. Fear followed me often. I had been taken for many long and tiring walks asking for alms. I had lived through poverty and hunger for quite some time. I had marketed, cooked and cleaned homes I shared with siblings when we were together. Even though I had a biological father, I grew up without one around. Worse of all worst situations, I was left within reach and abuse of a pedophile who liked to be called and considered Ama. What a dark childhood that was. I could never freely talk about any or all of it, so I write, in a nutshell, now. Forgiveness, I time and time heard, releases all traumatic experiences and cleanses the mind/heart. It is not an easy idea to act upon forgiveness. Why should I forget and forgive?
Intentionally or not, THEY put me in precarious and dangerous environments and hands. I always wondered why and how biological parents lived with those. Before I was even seven, I had lived in a one room home without utilities. I had lived under one's house out in the open, and slept exposed to damaging weather elements for many nights. Fear followed me often. I had been taken for many long and tiring walks asking for alms. I had lived through poverty and hunger for quite some time. I had marketed, cooked and cleaned homes I shared with siblings when we were together. Even though I had a biological father, I grew up without one around. Worse of all worst situations, I was left within reach and abuse of a pedophile who liked to be called and considered Ama. What a dark childhood that was. I could never freely talk about any or all of it, so I write, in a nutshell, now. Forgiveness, I time and time heard, releases all traumatic experiences and cleanses the mind/heart. It is not an easy idea to act upon forgiveness. Why should I forget and forgive?
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